being loved by our children

i mean, lets be honest here. is there really anything better than the love we get from our children? those of you who don't have them.. well you just won't understand until you do. it is by far (in my eyes) the absolute best love you can receive. it is so pure. it is without strings. it is so completely unconditional. in other words, it's the bomb and it can make you feel amazing when you don't really feel amazing. 

tonight i wasn't feeling that great. don't know why but i just wasn't feeling myself. felt a little depressed. i put both of the girls down for bed and they both weren't having it. i was frustrated at first. they are both such good sleepers, what in the world was going on?! i took a minute and felt like maybe i should just give them a little help.. i grabbed quinn's bottle that she hadn't finished, got her out of bed and gave her the rest while i rocked her to sleep. something about watching my sweet baby girl look me in the eyes with her sweet sleepy blue eyes just melted my heart right then and there. that's all she need to be happy. was a bottle and her mama holding her tight.  what a beautiful thing. 

after quinn was tucked away sleeping her in crib i came out only to find that brooklynn was still having a hard time falling asleep. so again instead of being frustrated i got in bed with her and told her i would lay in bed with her until she fell asleep. she then proceeded to put her arms all the way around my next and said, "i love you so much mom, you're my best friend". be still my heart. i don't think it is possible to feel happier than i did at that moment. as i laid there scratching her back as she drifted off to sleep i realized that no matter what is going on in my life no matter if i'm feeling down for this reason or not.. i have these two sweet girls.. and that to them i am everything. i am their world. that's enough to get me through a life time and more. 

i love these sweet girls with my whole entire heart. 

valentines day / / orange county

one of the many great things about moving here to bakersfield is that we are so much closer to my family. orange county is just over 2 hours away from us which means i will get to see them so much more often which i am beyond excited about. 

for valentines day the kids and i headed down there because my mom planned the most awesome valentines day. it started at jerry's dog for lunch and my mom had made the cutest valentines day pouches that looked like envelopes that were hanging on the back of every child's chair. they were to die for! ah. all the kids exchanged valentines, it was so fun for brooklynn since it was her first time really getting into valentines day. plus lunch was yummy!

then we all headed to cinepolis luxury cinemas. this place is awesome! it's a movie theater where all the seat are huge soft recliner chairs and they have servers to come and wait on you and bring you whatever you want. it was so nice for me juggling the two littles to have two huge seats to deal with. it made the whole experience so much easier. we saw the lego movie and if you haven't seen it you should. i wasn't sure how much i was going to like it but it turned out to be so good and so funny. i would definitely recommend it. 

after the movie we all headed over to toys r us because my mom treats every kid to a valentines day toy. so all the kids ran around toys r us picking out their perfect toy. brooklynn had originally chosen the huge $40 bear.. this was what she wanted.. out of every single toy in that place she was set on this bright green bear. since she already has a big bear and a million other stuffed animals i was determined to get her to pick something else. and she did! we went into the art supply area and she saw a esle and she was sold! best choice ever she LOVES it!! 

so i have to say a huge thanks to mimi and papa for such a fun valentines day!

we stayed for one more day which consisted of breakfast with my girlfriend kourtney, she then cut my hair and brooklynns hair and did her hair all cute, then met my other girlfriend nicole and target with her kiddos, then i met my sister janice at the mall for lunch and shopping, and then got brooklynn's nail painted, then just hung out at my parents house for the rest of the day until we headed home that night. it was such a fun weekend! i look forward to many more just like it!

here is a little video of brooklynn dancing at the gap in the mall while we waited for janice to try some clothes on. she's such a nut.

christmas 2013

this christmas was probably the most mellow christmas i've ever had and it was great. christmas eve was spent at my in laws house where we had a mary and joseph dinner where we eat only what marry and joseph may have had to eat such a bread, and cheese and fish and so on. then i of course had to make a last minute trip to target. christmas eve at our own home was fun. we have never spend christmas eve and christmas morning on our own before and it was pretty fun to do it with just us. brooklynn and quinn opened up their first present which had their christmas PJ's. we put cookies out for santa and carrots out for the reindeer. we only had a few carrots left since brooklynn loves carrots and ate almost all of them. silly girl. 

both girls slept in our room that night since i didn't want brooklynn getting up and seeing everything before we got up and quinn is just so sick with this nasty cold that i wanted to have her close.

chirstmas morning was hilarious. you have got to watch the video of brooklynn coming out and seeing everything. apparently she wanted a magic scooter and not a regular scooter. hahaha. she of course later was super excited and has been non stop riding her scooter but her first reaction was pretty hilarious and will be very fun to have for years to come.

after we opened presents we went back to my in laws for a yummy breakfast. more gift opening and a yummy chirtsmas lunch. we also played games and watched despicable me 2.  it was a pretty amazing day and we had a blast. so sad that christmas is over! i am already counting down the days until next year! christmas is so much more fun with your own kids! and it just gets more and more fun as the kids get older!

i hope you all had a very merry christmas! 

until next year!

^^so many pieces!^^

^^taken with my new iPhone lens that curtis got me!^^

you have got to watch this video of B coming out and seeing everything. 

such a funny kid!!