bullying.

I don't know if any of you have seen the trailer for this movie coming out on bullying but if you haven't you need to watch it, it's at the end of this post. Every time I see it I start to cry because it literally hurts my heart.

Bullying is something that I wish did not exist but it does. When I was younger there were times in my life where I was on both sides. Now when I was in school I was not a bully. But there is one particular thing I did when I was in high school that will literally haunt me for the rest of my life. I don't want to get into it but it had to do with a group of girls being mean to one particular girl.

Now I have tried to find this girl via the internet but I have had no luck. Even though it was so long ago and it was one time and I was one of many involved I seriously feel the need to tell her I'm sorry. It makes me sick.

There are millions of kids that get bullied each year and it kills me. Especially having a child of my own. I am so scared that she is going to be bullied, or be a bully. I will do every thing I can to make sure my children aren't on either side of this and if they see it happening will be strong enough to stand up to it. 

People say, kids will be kids, which is true to some extend, but it seems to be much worse now than when I was a kid. The hitting and name calling is absurd. 

And what's even worse it the internet. Kids don't even have to be brave to bully anymore. It can be done on the internet in the comfort of your own bedroom. Your child doesn't even have to have access to the internet to be a victim. 

I wish there was something I could do to stop this from happening. But I feel like the first step is to talk to your child and let them know they can trust you. Talk to them about bullying. About being a victim of bullying or actually bullying themselves. Because if they are in fact a bully if you let them know exactly what they are doing to the other child maybe they will stop.

I dunno, this post is really all over the place and my child is only 1 but it is something that I feel really strongly about. It breaks my heart.

wanna help a sister out?

So I've been really sick of my hair lately. And I've decided that when I hit my weight goal I am going to make a change to my hair. Now I've done two different things in the past. Once I dyed my hair brown. And second I cut my bangs, but my hair was still blonde. I want to do one of these again. Or maybe both? What do you guys think? Do you like either of these? Or maybe none of them?! 

Let me know what you think! :)

friendship.

I've been thinking a lot about friendship lately. When you get married and start to have kids your friendships start to change. Some friends you start to see less. Some you start see more. Some disappear all together. A lot of the time the change is mutual. Sometimes it's not. 


It's really hard when it's not.


It's hard when friends start start to fade into different lives and pull away. No matter how hard you try to keep the friendship going, if the other person doesn't try just as hard. It fades away.


But I have to say that I am so thankful for all the people I have in my life who have stuck with me through thick and thin. Family is most important always. But friends are important too. 


There are times in your life when the best therapy is to just go out to dinner with your girlfriends and talk, and laugh, and just be silly. I love those times. Especially with the friends that I have. This group of people is seriously amazing!


I think one of the worst things we can do is take advantage of our friends or make them feel bad. I think we should make it a goal to make sure our friends know that they are cherished. Everyone likes to feel cherished. So we should let the people we care about know that we love them even when times are hard.


And I can't forget all of you! Seriously, you make me feel so loved with all your comments. Thank you from the bottom of my heart! You are all so beautiful!






and now I'll leave you with a video that my friend Kaitlin and I made a couple years ago doing the best dance ever. (our glasses are from when we saw Hannah Montana/ Meet Miley Cyrus in concert in 3D. ha)

frustrating.

Today started out as a great day. Brooklynn was super happy. We had a great morning playing. We both took an amazing nap and then we headed to the Discovery Gateway Museum. It was a blast! She had so much fun running around and playing with all of the different things. We got a pass today. It is the perfect place to go on cold days like today. 

The day however started to go down hill when it was time to leave. She was tired and hungry and did NOT want to leave. My little brother was with us and we headed over to the food court to get a little snack. She normally gets upset when we leave somewhere fun but usually lets it go when we leave. But I think the combination of her being tired and hungry just pushed her over the edge into full on freak out mode.

She started screaming at the top of her lungs RIGHT after we ordered our food. Nothing I could do would calm her down. She was just screaming over and over and again. So I was trying to hurry up and get out of there because I felt bad for everyones ears. Doing the best I could with the situation I was in.

As I was walking out of the food court there were two girls sitting at a table with newborn babies deliberately giving me the worlds dirtiest looks. I'm talking the meanest look anyone has EVER given me. Normally I would just blow it off. But today I was already frustrated... I stopped and said, 

"Clearly you guys don't have very much experience with children or you would NOT be giving me, a fellow mom, that dirty of looks"

and walked away.

Not my best moment. I know. Confrontation is not the way to handle things but it really bothered me. Children throw fits for no reason at all. It's not like I was just sitting there ignoring her. I was doing my best to make her happy and get out as fast as I could. She is too little to respond to threats and time out and I am not going to spank her especially if she doesn't understand why. That's just not me. 

Whenever I am in a public place and I see a mom with a child who is throwing a fit and is doing the best they can I always try and give a friendly smile. Kind of like mom code for "Hey, I know you're doing the best you can I want you to do that you're not alone".

Being a mom is not easy all of the time. 

Yes it is the best thing that has ever happened to me but it can be very hard sometimes. We don't need to be giving each other dirty looks for doing the best we can. 

It's not right. 

It is amazing how just a smile can light up someone's day when they are having a hard time. We don't know what every one else is going through. And I guarantee that if you help someone else out. You will feel better too.

baby tantrums

Brooklynn has FINALLY kick that stupid bug to the curb! We have gone 3 full days with no throwing up! Woohoo!! Anywho...

I would definitely say that having a 1 year old is harder than having a 2 year old. 

Not that having a 1 year old is hard. But what is hard is when she throws tantrums and is too little for time outs and to fully understand what right and wrong is. 

It seems like lately she has been gaining more and more of an attitude. It is insane. I think at this moment in time she requires a lot of attention which I am more than willing to give.

She is learning so fast and you can see it in her eyes how excited she gets when she learns something new. It makes me a very proud mama. 

She now can says: fish, jump, eyes, mama, dada, baba, nose, night night, bye bye, ball, baby, soft, and no. I even swear she said "i love you". 

She knows where her eyes, ears, and nose is.

She is so smart it amazes me every single day. Not to mention, she is getting cuter and cute every single day. I don't know how that happens!

But back to how this is a hard age...

I cannot get this girl to eat anything other than mac n cheese, waffles/pancakes, and eggs. She will eat baby food but she even is getting over that. I put so many different kinds of things in front of her and she just throws them off her tray.

It can get to be very frustrating. 

I know that if she gets hungry enough she will eat anything but I don't want to starve her! 

Any suggestions on how to get her to try new foods? I know she will like them she just needs to give them a try!